5/18/09

 

              I never thought i would fall

                       inlove

              And i especialy didnt think i would fall for

                       you

my best friend ever since we were kids

                       your sweet kind smile

                       your musical laughter

                       your dark kind eyes

              nope i never thought i would fall for you

5/18/09

             You were (and still are) my friend,

             ever since i was 8 years old.

             you were (are) like my brother to me

             i could always count on you (and still can)

             if i was in trouble you would help me out of it(and you still do)

             when you were in a different school

             you skipped school just to have lunch with me

             when i refused to eat

             you made me eat

             when i cried

             you would stay with me until i stopped and get me ice creame

             and you still do this for me

             you loved me more than any one and

             i love you and i want to say thanks for all youve done for me

             and i want you to know that if you need me

             i would always be here for you no matter what :-)

5/18/09

           huh?what?

           i cant understand these words you are telling me

           cant hang-out no more?we arent friends no more?

           what?im confused!

           oh.........i understand

           dont cry?dont be mad?

           of course not!im no cry baby

           you should know that friend

no im not mad........how can i be?

           please....im tougher than what you think of me

           you call me weak and pathetic when

           you are weak and pathetic

           im not the one telling my best friend we cant be friends because my boyfriend told me to

           psssh!i dont need you

           bye!

5/18/09

who can you trust?

NO ONE! is my answer

why dont i trust no one?

because

i gave my heart to someone

and they tore it apart

because

i did things for someone

and they were just using me

thats why i dont trust no one

and i never will

5/18/09+5/21/09

my feelings are so confusing

i feel

sad,

happy,

mad,

guilty,

regretful,

numb

i cry so hard

my head hurts so bad,

my body feels so bruised up as if i was just beatin by a stick

my pain is emotional and physical

i cant believe im still alive

i cant breath!

a part of my life is gone

the lost of my beloved dog....

i never thought this can happen!

i thought he would die of old age

not in a car accident!

i thought i had more time

i thought

when i come home,i would have him jumping up and down-greeting me

i thought

i would take him for a walk and have him run around in the peir barking happily

i thought wrong

i would come home to see him lying on the bed unmoving

he wont jump

he wont run

i wont see him anymore

he would be buried deep in the ground and i will be above the ground

crying

regreting not coming home right after school

i dont want to live without him!

i dont

i cant handle this pain thats in my heart

i cant!

i didnt want this to happen

i didnt

why?

why my dog?

i...i hate this!

i HATE IT!!!!!

THIS SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED!